Tuesday Ten - My Favorite Songs (Released in 2015)

10. The Hills - The Weeknd 

I'm just tryna get you out the friend zone / Cause you look even better than the photos 

9. Marvin Gaye - Charlie Puth ft. Meghan Trainor 

Let's Marvin Gaye and get it on / You got the healing that I want

8. Stitches - Shawn Mendes 

I thought that I've been hurt before / But no one's ever left me quite this sore / Your words cut deeper than a knife / Now I need someone to breathe me back to life 

7. Break Up With Him - Old Dominion 

Rip it off just like a band-aid / The way you look at me, girl, you can't pretend / I know you ain't in love with him, break up with him 

6. Hello - Adele

They say time's supposed to heal ya / But I ain't done much healing 

5. Loving You Easy - Zac Brown Band 

Come slow this down and make it last / The best things fly by so fast 

4. Sorry - Justin Bieber

Yeah I know that I let you down / Is it too late to say I'm sorry now 

3. I'm Comin' Over - Chris Young 

So I'm comin' over, running every red light / To hell with the closure, save it for another time / Try not to think about you, but it ain't workin' / Why put out a fire when it's still burnin' 

2. Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots 

I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink / But now I'm insecure and I care what people think 

1. John Cougar, John Deere, John 3:16 - Keith Urban 

Just another rebel in the great wide open / On the boulevard of broken dreams / And I learned everything I needed to know from John Cougar, John Deere, John 3:16


*All of these songs can be found in a playlist here: My Favorite Songs (Released in 2015). 

Dear Future Husband (No. 1)

Dear Future Husband, 

I'm sorry. I'm scared. And I'm excited. 

I'm sorry for my past. For giving my heart away too easily. For having a twisted perception of men. For not having trust. I'm also sorry for my present. For constantly searching for you instead of being patient. For forgetting to pray for you. I'm even sorry for my future. For the mistakes I will make. For letting my emotions drive me at times. For not following through on things I may promise. 

I'm sorry for you. For the temptations you deal with everyday. For the girls who show a little too much. For the lie that being a man means being physically strong and hiding emotions. For the expectations I already have - the ones you feel like you have to meet, but know you won't always be able to. I'm sorry for your past hurt, whatever that may look like. 

More than sorry, I'm scared. I'm scared for the bad times. For not living up to your expectations. For being a bad wife or mother. For fighting. For potential financial stresses, even though I know that ultimately doesn't matter. 

But even more than sorry and scared, I'm excited. I'm excited to meet you. I'm excited for you to experience my awkwardness. I'm excited for the mountains. For the jokes and the laughs. For the happy tears. For our future children. For serving the Lord together. For dancing and singing in the kitchen. For worship and fellowship in the family room. For deep conversations. For working in the mission field. I'm excited for the valleys. For the hardships and the tears. For the trials that will shape our relationship. For the times when we know the only thing pulling us through is our love for the Lord. I'm excited for all of the moments we will share.

I'm sorry and scared and excited. I don't know when I will meet you, but I pray that temptations are small and that the Lord prepares you for my craziness and sensitivity. I pray that He softens your heart, opens your eyes, and prepares you for everything that may come. But most of all, I pray that you lean on Him and love Him more and more each day, more than you will ever love me. 

Love, 
Your Future Wife